okay im gonna put my pictures up later .. just for you nina .. lol .. but yeah .. this year deff. isn't how i thought it would be going .. it pretty much has sucked so far .. i want someone to just make me happy and for them to be happy too and for things to be good .. like they were .. i was happy he was "happy" all my friends and family liked him a lot .. but nope it didn't work out .. but whatever i guess thats' life .. maybe now i will find someone else i hope .. i mean its not like i have to have a guy .. i want someone ... just to sit and hold me all night long .. someone who wont' think bout having sex all the time .. someone who can just sit and watch movies/tv with me all day when im sick and he just be happy to see me and be there with me .. someone who can make me laugh .. and someone who can be there for me when i need them the most like right now .. family problems suck .. yeah i have my friends .. but i mean .. i dunno someone else to be there for you thats more than a friend is nice too .. but i guess that's life huh? maybe he will come .. lets keep those fingers crossed .. but till then i guess i have to make the best of it and have fun .. but i dunno .. write later when i put pictures up ..

how can anyone hurt someone so effing bad?. do they not have any feelings at all? 

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